“and if you don’t know, now you know, you know” Biggie Smalls
For those of you wondering, no I am not a big hip-hop rap music fan but for some small reason I can’t get this lyric out of my head. I am pretty sure it wedged itself there during the NYU days and now as I finish up 1Q84 I am even more unsure of what I know and what I don’t know. Help me Biggie! I have been spending a lot of time with myself in practice and you know the number one thing that scares people about an at home Ashtanga Yoga practice is the amount of time required to hang out with yourself. The good yoga shala’s try to keep distraction to a minimum but we all know that even in the quietest of group settings if you want to you can find the loudest attention getters and literally just get through the practice.
Have you ever stood at the top of your mat feeling like total rubbish and practiced anyway? I just did that….and while it really isn’t the coziest feeling (why do people think that a yoga practice is cozy?) it is the juiciest. It is the reminder. I do this practice for the evolution of my self, soul, and spirit. I do this practice to be a witness to the changes that are necessary to live a more awake life and the strength to follow through on that change. I do this practice for me…not poses, or a teacher’s approval, or to see and be seen.
I guess I didn’t know and now I know…you know. Thanks Biggie.